It was around 4 pm on Tuesday 12 July 2022. I’d been standing by the window for a while now, looking at the dusk slowly stretch itself on the city ahead, gathering courage to look down.

Minutes passed, but my gaze remained fixed at the lights, becoming more visible as the sun dimmed, dropping below the horizon. ‘Look down,’ I told myself. ‘You can do it. It’s okay.’ Breathing deeply, I gathered the courage to tug open the hospital gown I was wearing and peek at the bandages on my chest, to try to catch a glimpse of something that was not there anymore. Staring at absence.