Content warning: deals with suicidal ideation, suicide and depression

Crying while riding an exercise bike while watching The Sopranos is weirdly freeing. When lockdown came to Perth, I bought an exercise bike from an outlet warehouse, built it upstairs, cut myself on the cheap pocket spanner it came with, turned it towards the TV, and began peddling. I had just started watching The Sopranos for the second time, though for the first time with someone I love, who is, naturally, living on the other side of the world in Bushwick, Brooklyn, New York New York.